2/20/10

Ill.

My bones are tired, I've been a little ill lately. Pain leaked through my body like spilled ink, poisoning all my vessels. Draining my energy, low batteries again. Haeleigh walked in to find me in a heap on the cluttered mattress. She told me my body looked like a bow and arrow. I find myself distracted, reading in class instead of listening to lectures. Mentally, I'm completely absent. I wish I could get the stamina back, I really do. I've had the strangest urges lately. Today, I wanted so badly to visit a volcano. Stand at the heart of it, let my voice echo, breathe the heat. I want to live at the top of a misty cliff, feel morning dew on my skin, absorb the salty sea. Hang a butterfly collection above my desk, waste time inspecting feathery wings. I want to make paper boats and float them in my tea. I want to sleep on my back in a warm bay. I want to get lost in shelves of books, running my fingers over crackling spines. You used to make me so nervous, darling. 
Releasing lions, you know?

3 comments:

  1. you're beautiful. i hope you're feeling better.

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  2. Madi, sounds like you might have been infected with the devastating virus--Spring Fever. No cure, so just hang on, 'cause it will eventually leave you on the shore of sanity and responsiblitly. A bit worn around the edges, but with a smile on your fave.

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